assalamualaikum!!
2.38 a.m huuu 2nd day of 2012...
xleh tidoooo
td dah tido...mama lak mai dok terjah2 masuk bilik...last2 x dpt la nk tido...huuu segar bugar dah nie...
ok2...
terlari dri topik lak...
HONESTLY....sy risau!
just now bru je tgok 1 video yg sgt sweet.... kt utube...a vid a girl made...its about a stranger who propose to her... subhanallah~ sgt sweet...the girl is just 19 and now already engaged to that guy....
seriously....sy jeles!
selalu org akan mengeluh bila xda bf/gf or couple time remaja nie....i think people should mengeluh andai diorg xdpt merasai nikmat cnta after akad... coz not everyone lucky enough to have it....
nowadays...ada something yg always make me thinking.... and feeling worried
i admit...rite now 'm having someone special in my life...
yet...what make me worried is..... we had no legal or halal relationship... which i do know couple before akad is prohibited in Islam....
what makes me more and more worried is... i used to read this one ayat.... something sound like dis laa...
"bila kamu menyukai seseorg...luahkan lah pada Allah... jgn luahkan pada org itu...nanti Allah akan kurangkan rasa syg /suka tu...."
i worried...mcm mana if one day my love to him kurang or worst....HILANG...
to suddenly stop dis relationship.... it hard for me to let him go rite now... and he already got the feeling towards me.... huuu
somehow deep inside.... i do wish i will be chosen to become one of those yg berpeluang merasai nikmat cinta selepas nikah.....
risau dan buntu..... it keep surrounding my life rite now.... seriously hidup kurang tenteram lately....
hurmm....
actually i know what SHOULD i do......it just... i'm not ready to do.... i'm afraid...to take the step... huuhu
Ya Allah...please forgive me.... sesungguhnya setiap saat aku berdosa pada Mu....
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