now I am an ADULT

Assalamualaikum...

....

*senyum*

just read my last post on 2014... and today..2016..

2 years apart...

nie suma salah google... im having trouble to sign in this account.. sbb account ni guna emel yahoo..

sigh...

2 years x memblog...

merata wei aku cari blog ni...acaner nk log in blik... hampeh tol... alhamdulillah... jumpa gak...

diari aku ni... hahaha


by the way... hari ni da masuk 7 ramadhan... da seminggu posa... skang pkul 2.32 pagi...

ngantok siot... baru ja abes wat kek batik...hahaha


hurmmm.... byk sgt nk tulis...

tp xtaw nk mula cmne...

lots of things had happened.... already 26 y.o...

quite old isnt it?

more matured i guess...

reading back my old posts... mcm funny lak... masa tu asyik ckp had enough in life la... bla bla bla..

hadoiii..

in 2 years... mcm2 jadi... getting to know lots of people... going through various experiences... ada yg menyakitkan... ada yg membahagiakan..


smpai kadang2 rasa penat sgt... dgn hidup...

well... i want to write everything... tp...mata da kuyu yg amat

esok nk bgun sahur lg

nanti la aku sambung...

daaaa...


p/s: i really missed you blog..

its been years....

Assalamualaikum!!!!

Allah...ingat dah xde blog nie....* nostalgia*

mashaAllah....lama benar x jenguk blog nie... last update umo 20...now officially 24!!! 


>0< olddd!!

thanks Allah for this age... =)


da masuk final year degree... xlama lg nk abes daa insha Allah...


life?


ade up ade down.... hidup mcm roda kan....


people came n go to my life...

those i thought will be beside me forever, has gone...

xpe... takdir Allah...*smile*


k..nak study....daaa

p/s: missed parents... uhuk2

penat....

assalamualaikum...

huu...xtaw nk mula cmne... lama dah x menulis...dlm kepala nie memang idea nk mencarut bercurah2...berterabur tnpa susunan jitu.... semak!

tension...?

aah...tu lah yg aku tgh ase.... why? TOO MANY REASONS!

mls nk list down satu per satu.... yg pasti..skang nie aku terasa bahang... penatnya jadi perempuan!

Allah.....ampunkan hambaMu ini....

huhuh

xpernah terniat untuk tidak mensyukuri nikmat dan pemberianMu wahai Tuhan....T____T

tp...hari ni...aku terasa lelah...penat.... tertekan....kerana d lahirkan sbg perempuan..

kerana aku perempuan....aku xleh drive blik kedah sewenang2 nya....and now i end up staying home alone at puncak alam...dan menjadi remaja yg DAYUS sbb x turun mengundi!!

and others reasons yg x payah la nk mention kt sini kan....

xda mood pon nk mention....geram!!

hadoiii.....

y my life damn miserable? i thought after aku smbung study, after aku turun berat...all my sorrow will vanish....sama ja....makin menjadi2!

perempuan? xde dlm jiwa lah bro

mlm yg sepi....d temani lagu tokyo drift...

akibat tido lewat study, mlm nie x ngantok lak...sedangkan esok ade kelas ganti...

huuuu..

apa nak merepek meraban mlm2 nie...

life kinda bored without special person around...isnt it?

huuu...lately saham jatuh laaa...aigooo...

mayb coz i'm not gugurl enuf?

hahaha!

damn... nak aku gugurl? memang x la kan....

teringin kadang2...tp rasa geli bila jadi gugurl...

aku rasa..hurmmm

LEMAH...

x suka nampak lemah depan lelaki...

serius x suka....

tp aku ade 1 aim...hahaha!

new tactic... xleh citer lg...kang x jadi malu hahaha

well, we'll see next sem...apa jadi....

i'll transform again...

reason? to catch some bad boys....

life kinda bored without them hahaha...

good boys too boring... =.=" 

catching some handsome bad boys wit good cars... kinda...interesting haha!

let try our luck keyh! haha

assalamualaikum....

25/12/2012...3.34ptg...

leisurenye la hai aku hari nie...lg seminggu nk fnal exam...x reti2 nk study ....huhu

lama x menulis panjang2...(typical sentence...isn't it? =.=")

niat hari nie nak menulis panjang2 sket hehehe....there is a topic yg aku rasa nk luahkan kt sini.... coz...bila aku ckp kt org...no one understand me....and that's irritating!

this is....about....MARRIAGE

umur aku skang 22thn...in syaa Allah next year 23thn..kalau masih hidup....
kwn2 aku mostly umur sme, tua setahun or 2...
and lately, most of them are getting married @ engaged

1st of all...CONGRATS! MABROUK! from the bottom of my heart....>_<

may Allah bless u and ur partner...ameen

may I asked u a question?

does this MARRIAGE thing is...WAJIB?

=.="

i didnt hate marriage...i just do not want to involve with this man-woman relationship....
its too complicated...too troublesome....a very heavy burden....
i would like to live single.... for the rest of my life...to build my career.... to achieve all my dreams

i had enough of tears for man.....enough pain and hurt feeling for man....enough of everything....

the last thing i remember....the 1st moment i felt in love, that was the moment my life start to become miserable...start to fell apart....i start to live in a restless life.....

i pray to Allah...to close the door of my heart...and do not make me fall in love again.....

i really hope Allah grant my wish...


but for the meanwhile...alhamdulillah.... i found happiness of being single....>__<

for those who read this post...hey dont get me wrong! i didn't against marriage...if u wanna get married...go on.... i'll cheers for u... i'll pray for u ....
its a sunnah to get married... but a sunnah....is not a thing that u MUST do.... there are lots of sunnah...and not all being practice by everyone.... so...why can't i choose for not practice this one?


give me space.... i hate it when people scolded me when i said i do not want to get married.... i hate it when people trying to match making me with someone.... i know i'm capable to live by my own.... i can protect myself.... i need no man to protect me....i've siblings, i've friends...i've family.... y should i find a stranger to interfere my life?

p/s: i also wish to "meet Him" earlier...kinda scared living in this world too long...= (

singgah sebentar

bismillahirrahmanirrahim...

Assalamualaikum!

lama nya x memblog huuu.....nasib baik x lupa password...

Ya Allah....busy sungguh lately....alhamdulillah...masih d beri kekuatan untuk melalui segalanya....terima kasih Allah...

minggu nie byk giler test dan quiz...like...everyday!
skang nie ade lg 2 paper.... Ya Allah kuatkan aku....huu

nie x masuk final exam lg....=.="

erm... actually xda mood nk menulis....xtau nak citer ape...dlm hati n dlm minda nie ade byk sgt citer...too many things happen lately...tp skang not in the mood nak citer...huhuhu


k la....take cre all...

assalamualaikum...

x mampu mimpi pon...

bersuamikan seorg ustaz....masyaAllah...sapa yg xnk.... 

insyaAllah bahagia dunia akhirat.....

tapi....

layak kah aku.........

aku sedar betapa hina diri ini....mana lah layak d gandingkan dgn ustaz....

x adil bg org sebaik dan sealim beliau...dpt isteri mcm aku....

memang...x d nafikan...aku penah berdoa...aku penah mintak pada Allah...

kirimkan aku seorg imam....yg soleh..yg dpt bawak aku ke jalan Nya...

tapi...

untuk membayangkan 'imam' itu sbg seorg ustaz pon x berani....apatah lg kalau jadi realiti...

ustaz tu lg layak mendapatkan isteri yg solehah....bkn mcm aku...

wanita yg baik untuk laki2 yg baik, dan laki2 yg bai untuk wanita yg baik....

yg pasti..aku bukanlah wanita yg baik......jadi sgt2 mustahil pasanganku seorg ustaz.....

p/s: i should kill this dream...forever..

(ini terjadi apabila cuba d match makingkan dgn seorg ustaz oleh sepupu)