xdapat aku gmbarkan perasaan bila en.muthu ckp "u present semula next week"
hancur dowh hati...even dah dpt rasa benda nie akan terjadi.....sesungguhnya, mcm mana pon aku cuba..hati aku x dpt terima...x dpt redha..... maafkan aku Ya Allah......
sepanjang sesi presentation...aku cuba tahan air mata dri mengalir...everytime i heard they laughing.... seriously...i can't stop myself from thinking that they are laughing at me...
tepat pukul 5, aku terus ambik beg kuar...aim..nk cepat smpai ke kete.... sorry mus, kalau aku termoody kt ko.....i'm feel miserable at that time...tmbh bila kak waanii ngan kak ija luahkan rasa kesal dgn keputusan en.muthu (alhamdulillah..masih ada yg memahami) and kak puteri yg mengosok2 blakang aku...serius sgt susah nk tahan air mata saat itu...nasib baek x nangis..huhuhuhuh
smpai je kt keta...aku terus menangis...dan menangis..dan menangis....hati sakit sgt...sedih...kecewa...marah suma ada.... masa drive...rasa mcm nk langgar je pokok x pon lori yg bertentangan..... bkn niat aku nk bunuh diri...nauzubillah.... tp nak hilangkan rasa sakit di hati nie dgn sakit yg lain......
if u need to find someone to forget the other, it same goes to pain.... u need to find other pain to forget this pain....
balik umah...aku makan dgn sgt bnyk...nak redakan hati... boleh la tahan... pastu terus tido.... x sedar bila mama balik
mcm mimpi...mama dtg kt bilik aku...n try to comfort me...mcm tau2 ja i'm not in good condition at that time....
jus now, mama brought me to Uncle John Kopitiam...sje makan2...she say with these meals... she hope that i'll feel better.....
thanks mama~
p/s; till now, if i talk bout ptg td..mata akan bergenang...... kak mek, kak ummi....saya rindu kalian..... TT__TT
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