endless yet useless dream...=.="

its 1.42 a.m in the morning... actually i just awake at 11.45 p.m just now..so i should not be sleeping... study weyh study!!! hahahaha~
as always, i keep on listening to burnsoul's song... love the lyric soo much~

"kadangkala kita lupa, kadangala kita leka, kadangkala kita buta...DIA, memerhatikan kita
sesungguhnya manusia sifatnya pelupa, walau di sogok seribu nasihat setiap masa, hati tetap sukar di tembusi kerna dosa-dosa, menjadi dinding pemisah antara aku dan DIA..
dulu...dlm gelap zulmat dunia, walau lampu lagu rancak buat ku berdansa bersama mereka yg sebahtera, dalam bah peluh oh penuh nista, ku terlupa..
aku khayal...leka gembira walau sementara...tapi nikmatnya, kala itu x terkata.. kerna apa? kerna aku tiada pegangan nyata..aku hanyut dgn arus dunia oh dunia..
aku hanyalah manusia yg sering lupa, yg slalu leka...dgn tipu daya oh dunia...ku serahkan segala.. terimalah doaku"

suddenly something came to mind, which make me wanna write it on my blog... but, as always..the topic is about Syamsul Yusof...
when did i get to know about his existence? if i not wrong... when i'm still in primary school... don't get the wrong idea... i never met him in my life... but it was when this one local magazine interview his father, and it was about his family... at that time, Syamsul Yusof was at his college, so the reporters only managed to get his photo... then..after he graduated, he start to be an actor... the 1st movie i saw him in was gila-gila pengantin popular...at that time i didn't remember his name... but his appearance in that movie really capture my eyes... he also used to be supported actor in Sembilu Kasih...at that time he already well known as Datuk's son...and madly in love with DD...
after being awhile working as pengarah bersama with his dad, he came out with his own film..Evolusi KL Drift in 2008... because of him..i really fallen for drifting sports...and also seriously admiring him....
since then, i never missed any of his film...at least once i will watch his films at cinema, and buy original dvd to watch again the movie...when the movie no longer available at the cinema...
i know..u guys will say that i'm fanatic toward him, rite?
i won't say yes..and i won't say no either
coz i don't really know too...
love?
i don't know either... sometimes i dreamed to be his girl...hahahahaha! and it is deadly impossible! ...and my heart ache when i kept remind myself about the reality...huhuu
urghhhh!!! seriously!!! how can i stop myself from these useless dream???
i can't awake myself...and it's very annoying!
and it's hurt also..... TTTTT___________TTTT"